hi! i thought it was about time i set up this area of the site :)

i guess i wanna spend this first update talking about all that's changed in my life since i started this site four years ago! i started this when i was 18, and i'm 22 this june. i had just finished my final year 12 exams, and was getting ready to move to melbourne. i was super depressed, but less-so now that i'd gotten through the year. i had studied information technology, english literature, and chemistry, as well as studio art the year prior. in terms of uni and my future, i was 100% set on studying IT. i think this was around the time i found out that my english score was one point below what i needed to get into the bachelor of computer science, and was then having to pivot to a bridging course

anyway, i moved to the city, struggled to get any kind of accessibility support for my classes, and failed. i failed three times attempting the course across the span of maybe... 14 months? and in the midst of that i had a minor heart surgery! i was diagnosed with svt (supraventricular tachycardia) when i was 14, and finally had my ablation not long after my 19th birthday (it went well! no issues, and life has been a lot better in that regard)

i kind of totally gave up after failing for the third time.. and this was around the time i started dating my girlfriend! i kind of rolled around doing nothing for the next 4 months, when i decided i'd try out a certificate instead. i applied and it sounded a lot better... except the course was cancelled a couple days before starting! my brother had started studying graphic design and it sounded so awesome. i decided to enroll in the certificate last minute... and got in! i had no idea how no one had ever suggested to me that graphic design was the perfect intersection of my love for computers and websites, and my love for drawing...

anyway. course got cut short for reasons that don't really matter and i moved straight into a diploma of graphic design! i did that last year!!!!! i finally finished something!!!!! yay!!!!!!! me and my girlfriend moved out together (i had been living on campus for the better part of 3 years)!!!!

currently, i'm starting on a 6 month advanced diploma, which will then get me straight into the third year of the bachelor! at the time of writing, i'm kind of really struggling to be totallyyy honest. but i will get through it!!!!!!!! i might take a break after this... but i'll see

i think i fell into a bit of social media addition over the summer holidays.. oops.. i thought i had kind of left that behind. sorry guys. i'm really trying hard to push away from that!!!! instead i'm trying to engage with other artists in my area.. getting involved in the zine kinda space and such, and i've been loving the kind of old forums of chicken smoothie lol :] i think getting back into my site is a good step in the right direction too

thanks for checking in with me! it's nice to share a bit on here.. i feel like i've been quite mysterious and vauge. not really by choice. i'm just a bit awkward

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